Genius - [not related]

Okay. That's just a random title.

I don't know what to blog about, I was just bored and figured that I'd write something in this thing.

Twenty days without a single entry. I've been busy with work. Things are better. I like how they're going. Or maybe it just seems okay. I don't really know.

I've been bugged by a friend and a few trivial matters lately-- ... Oh well. I'm beginning to not like this friend of mine since... i'm beginning to notice something that I don't like about it. It makes me feel that it only likes me because it's in love with the fact that I __________________________________________ .

I think I need new music. Yeah.

something tells me to keep on smiling and be happy. hahaha.

What If

Today, someone to told me that I should tell someone I love what I feel about them because it's "The Right Time".

How do you exactly know when the right time is? And what if you "assumed" that it was the right time but it actually wasn't and everything got messed up... =__=

I'm confused.

LoL

Jaa.

:)

Everything is going okay. Things are okay. But then, I don't know why I am disturbed by evil what-ifs. I drew a lot of pictures the last few days and I was too lazy to write on this blog. Well, I had a lot to write about but I just wasn't in any mood to write anything.

Well just a summary of what happened last week:

• I applied for a job and got accepted

• I went as [HOBO] Phoenix Wright to a Halloween party for a cause. D: I played the piano for children.

• I kept missing 11:11 and I made a LOT of wishes when I get to 11:11 which was dumb because... I never thought you'd only be allowed one wish.. =_=

• I got bored with my life- so I drew pictures [on Photoshop with a MOUSE D:] it was hard >.<

Ex.

Ooh. And I learnt something new~ Well it should have been learnt a long long time ago. I realized that sometimes you just have to give up on certain things and matters because if you keep on trying and trying and it won't meet your expectations... You'll just end up getting disappointed. It applies to all fields and aspects in life and etc. I guess sometimes you should just restrict yourself from asking too much and expecting too much from what's there. It's the best way to avoid disappointment.

Or you could just simply cease to care...

and I like the idea of.. "simply cease to care". It's something I never did... but I'm tempted to do every time. Maybe I should. It might be the right thing to do... Maybe it was the right thing to do a long long time ago.

Building Castles in The Air ♥

You know?

I don’t seem to get this feeling.

It has been with me for days, weeks, months,

It’s like I’m so happy when I'm with you.

Talking, doing nothing, just sitting there,

Building castles in the air.

I was thinking— “Hey, we might be meant for this”

But—

I was wrong.

I was foolish.

I was dumb.

Dumb— to have thought that I could be

Someone who’d make you happy.

Foolish— to be this elated,

When you were with me.

Wrong— to have thought of something

I barely could accept.

You know?

I began again.

New and fresh.

Hoping for better days, weeks or even months.

I was so happy.

Talking, doing nothing, just sitting there,

Building castles in the air.

I was thinking— “Hey, doing this without you was

Definitely better”

But—

I was wrong.

I was foolish.

I was dumb.

Dumb— to think that trying to forget you

Would help

Foolish— ‘coz I was a fool trying to silence

This heart.

Wrong— to have not told you what I wanted

To…

Now you know,

That I didn’t seem to get that feeling.

It had been with me for days, weeks, months…

A year.

I’m happy for you.

Talking, doing nothing, just sitting there,

Building castles in the air.

A thing in the past.

I was wrong.

I was foolish.

I was dumb.

Dumb— because I hadn’t known what I felt.

Foolish— because I’m still feeling all this shit.

Wrong— because I wanted you, and I didn’t do

Anything for you to be mine.

You know?

I think I’m certain now about

Those days when I was with you,

Talking, doing nothing, just sitting there,

Building castles in the air.

From those moments,

How I wished I were your man.

The one who’d make you happy.

The one you grow old with.

The one to take care of you.

I’d live for you and you alone.

I’d do the laundry, I’d cook and wash the dishes.

I’m never gonna leave you.

You know what? I love you.

iEDIT: this was originally untitled but Katheh gave it a title so i be using it nao <3

"Change" - Obama

Change, I guess and time are the only enemies of man that man can't seem to defeat. Time initiates change and time weakens a lot of stuff. Man has always been at the mercy of time. Each passing minute is a minute lost forever.

These few days I've been noticing some changes around me, IRL and OL, it's all the same. IRL (in real life), things have been kinda bumpy this week. A lot of changes are gonna happen soon~ like a LOT. I'm applying for a job and I hope I get it. That would be so EPIC. I've made my resume and the only thing I lack now is my picture.. LOL. an I.D picture.

Things OL (online) are more messy. Things have changed. I don't understand why these things are happening and it's all.. messed up. dramadramadrama~ People aren't talking to each other. People are hurt. People are gone and Facebook is seriously Effed up~! D: But that's not my point, what I'm trying to say is, what went wrong? Things are kind of falling apart.

In the course of three months, things changed a lot. All of it isn't for the worst though. Some changes were good. Yeah. Good.

Time heals all wounds. It also makes you feel better/numb, it weakens bonds, it makes you forget~ not to mention.. it makes you OLD. Man became so smart that he had to quantify the revolution and the rotation of the earth around the sun.

"Change" That was Obama's line. Change is kinda fickle though. Sometimes for the best and sometimes it's just for the worst.

If I coud be honest, I'd tell you everything~

"Just wanna know you, Just wanna talk to you, I wanna hear about your day~ I'd never leave you, I'd never be mean to you~"

That song is just epic. BTW, it's by Bic Runga. The same singer/composer of the song "Sway". Anyway, I'm not here to talk about anything in particular but just to post a picture I found at XKCD. It's a pretty nice site :3

Here's the pic:

LOL. Yeah, Ain't it cute? :3

And here's the music video of "Something Good" [iEDIT: Well, not really the music video it's her singing live]

Katheh~ This be for you~ :3

No More "So"

This week has been slow. And I'm not starting with a "SO" now. Hahaha. I noticed and it's kind of annoying.

Not cute. Or anything near endearing. Things and plans about my life have changed. It's like a sudden turn of events. Imagine the south pole being the new north pole and Canada being a tropical country. Yeah, it's that intense.

I won't be going to Japan anymore... sad but not quite. For the first time, I didn't like the idea of going back even for a vacation. ;D

Anyway, things that I encountered during the past few days were:

•A friend of mine is in love now. Like in a relationship :D hahahaha you know who you are punk!

•Akunin is back <3

•I haven't seen Katheh around. D:

•I'm back to playing the piano.

•And I unexpectedly bumped into a few high school buddies in a cafe in town. We ended up sitting for 2 more hours inside. Talking about stuff.

LOL. And because of boredom, I went back to Facebook and Asian-Unity only to be bored more. :D and is Cyworld dead? People say it is... I haven't been on for a month or more.

I need a new list of songs D: Like I seriously need some new artists. Recommend some, thanks :3. I'll appreciate it. A lot.

ポストの歌２

Goodbye, YesterdayでMIZROCK

「無理するなよ」そう言って　肩寄せて　君は笑った
「ちょっとだけ、泣いていいかな？」こみあげた　涙

臆病　強がり　守っていたモノが邪魔して
たった一歩が　踏み出せないよ　明日が怖いよ

君の腕の中　あたたかいよ　僕は言えるかな
弱さを　今　翼に変えて
「サヨナラ　yesterday」

孤独だった　わけじゃないんだ　ただ心　閉じ込めてたんだ
でも最後に　ドアを開くのは　この僕だね

君の腕の中　せつないよ　僕は言えるかな
弱さを　今　翼に変えて
「サヨナラ　yesterday」
「サヨナラ　yesterday」

忘れかけてた勇気
とり戻しに行こう
ドアの向こうで　待っている
新しい僕に出逢うため

君の腕の中　あたたかいよ　僕は言えるかな
笑って　今　手を振るから
「サヨナラ　yesterday」

今この風を　両手にあつめて　僕は叫ぶよ
弱さを　今　翼に変えて
「サヨナラ　yesterday」

「サヨナラ　yesterday」

～０～

私はこの歌も本当に好きですよ～アニメから。。。ｒｏｍｅｏＸｊｕｌｉｅｔ。。じゃあ～

～０～

I read through my posts and realized that every single entry starts with a "so". :D LOL.

You Belong With Me

"If you could see that I'm the one who understands you, been here all along so why can't you see? You belong with me..."

Hahahaha. So I'm feeling GOOD today. Yeah. Yes, I am feeling GOOD today. Yesterday was shizz though.

•Reasons why yesterday was shizz•

Rain

Yes it was raining and I got drenched in the rain... not to mention I got splashed with the water from the sidewalk while I was headed to...

Music School

Yes, Music school, a friend of mine asked me to go and sit in a music class. It was interesting at first until little...

Kids

Like kids ages 4-8 began playing the piano. It made my head wanna 'splode. Seriously, they did. I ended up falling asleep :D After 5 hours of listening to them play, my...

Mom

picked me up from the music school. I still hadn't had lunch so we went to this restaurant that served things I Like. But my mom was EPIC... =___= when she ordered stuff, she didn't hear mine.. so she made her own choice and ended up ordering food that made me SICK. And it DID. I complained. My mom said okay and she said we'd be leaving so we left the restaurant and went....

Shopping

Yes, I thought we were leaving but we went shopping for stuff. SO there I was dying and feeling sick and my mom was taking her time buying groceries. She even made me carry all of the bags.. =___=.

Yes, that RUINED MY DAY YESTERDAY. Today, I helped my dad around the house. He was rewiring stuff and fixing stuff :D

My internet fails right now Yeah. I've been playing a lot of video games when my net's on downtime. lol. I can't find my PSP O.o or the charger or any of its components D: I think my sister or brother took it with them to dreamland.. or w/e.

Gee, I type a lot. LOL.

Jaa, ki o tsukete.

ポストの歌１

愛しでRADWIMPS

歌は本当に好きだぞ、時歌を聞こえては私に良い気がするんだ～大好きな歌はRADWIMPSから。。。じゃ、気をつけてね～

Oh yeah, starting from now on, whenever I sign in on MSN/WLM, message me first if you guys wanna talk to me because I think I'm disturbing people when I message them first... Hahaha. I'll be available most of the time.. unless my status says otherwise. :3

So I Got Turned On

LOL. So I was able to recover my Facebook account and now I'm on again. I don't feel too good about reactivating my account, I mean, when I got on things were just unfamiliar to me. Even if I knew the people in it, there are things that just kind of bug me when I'm on so I'm finally leaving it~ :3 I'm gonna continue blogging though.. problem now is which blog to maintain. I have two blogs. One on LiveJournal and this Blogger one. =___= I don't want to leave my other blog because it was epic. :3 like hell yeah epic..

I might be leaving for awhile because I'm going on a trip to Japan for a week or two. That is if school won't start soon enough. But if I'm not able to go, I'm gonna do something else. :]

Homaggah, I got inspired since people here are actually writing stuff like poetry lol or whatever. I used to write short stories for our school paper back in high school. I was the literary editor but seriously I suck at writing. Hahahaha.

"I can't find the courage to continue loving you if it hurts this much just to be with you... Do you know what it feels like to be a temporary high? A one night stand? And after that, what am I..?"

That line be so epic! :3 lol @ randomness

Anyway, yesterday morning I injured my ring finger. I fell and got my hand caught on this metal thingy on the window sill. It scraped off a little skin from my finger =___=. Yeah, that's how Epic I am. lol.

Anyway, I feel like I have a lot to write about but right now isn't really the right time for it. Yeah.. The right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing.. :3

★ Marks The Spot

So I made a new blog ’coz my old one got deleted when I cancelled my account. Way to go me~!! Hahaha. Anyway, I downloaded this program from Post2Blog. It’s a program that allows you to post things into your blog without actually having to open a browser. I’m testing it now and I’m using it to post this entry.

There isn’t much to say except that I’m missing people and like I want everything to go back to the way it was... but I guess they won't but I'm still hoping that they will though.

Also, I did this quiz a lot of times on Facebook (which also got duh-lee-ted when I cancelled my account on Windows Live Mail). Here it is:

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/iPOD/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
A Lack Of Color by Death Cab For Cutie
-hahahaha, Painter~

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Slow Motion by Third Eye Blind
-Ms. Jones taught me English~ but I think I shot his son.. lololol

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I Feel The Earth Move by Mandy Moore
-Oh yes!! <3

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Into Your Arms by The Maine
-hahahaha! Let me Fall into your arms~

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Wish I... By Jem
-Homaggah~ I have a lot of wishes. lmfao

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
You Love to Sing by Copeland
-Are they sure? lololol

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Will You Ever Lear by Typecast
-Hahaha!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
May I Have This Dance? by Copeland
-Homaggah, YES YES YES <3

WHAT IS 2+2?
White Horse by Taylor Swift
-Hahaha~~ 2+2 is a white horse~

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Don't Tell Me by Avril Lavigne
-huh?

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Migraine by Moonstar88
-Yeah.. dammit.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
A Perfectly Good Heart by Taylor Swift
-awww
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Superman by Five For Fighting
-Yay!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
All The Love in The World by The Corrs
-Ahahahaha... This is EPIC.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
If I were a Boy by Beyonce
-I am. D:

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Balisong by Rivermaya
-Aww. how can i dance to that?

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Stick With You by The Pussycat Dolls
- <3

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Intimacy by The Corrs
-Aww.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Open Your Eyes by Snow Patrol
-Hahaha. YEAH OPEN YOUR EYES NAB~

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
1234 by Plain White T's
-What's so bad about counting from 1 to 4?

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
15 Step by Radiohead
-Hahaha in 15 steps?

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Middle by Jimmy Eat World

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Touch My Body by Mariah Carey
-YES hahahaha! TUTS MAH BARREH

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Moment of Truth by FM Static
-=____=

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Love Story by Taylor Swift
-YES!!! YAY!

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Sleeping in by The Postal Service
-I'm scared of sleeping lol

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Stolen by Dashboard Confessional
-Huh?

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Obsessed by Mariah Carey
-hahaha. so I was like, Why are you so obsessed with me?

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Hopelessly Addicted by The Corrs
-DAMMIT.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Shooting Stars by Hale
- LOL.


Anyway, that was it. it's LONG hahahaha.